Duke Xavier Hollows
Mi amore, you have my heart to hold and to keep, to warm it with your own.
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Post by Duke Xavier Hollows on Jul 31, 2011 10:57:37 GMT -6
It had been two nervous days since he had gotten the note from Anonymous asking him to meet at 10:30 in the palace gardens, he had gotten there early. Very nervous he paced a bit around but didn't leave the area. Xavier took out a bag of mini cookies from his pocket and nibbled on one. Sitting down on a white stone bench he waited for Anonymous to come. Softly humming he wondered who Anonymous was and couldn't wait to meet the person who was so good to him. He hoped it was Revell so much and would be heartbroken if it wasn't him. Looking around some while he nibbled Xavier hummed softly and thought about all that had happened in the music hall. Luna what as he thinking he knew Revell had his eye on someone but it sure as hell wasn't him, he was just a kid.
He put his cookies down next to him on the bench he felt his heart sink instantly, thinking he had made a mistake. Xavier so badly wanted the person coming to see him to be Revell, the only person who made his heart skip a beat. But why him a lowly wolf like him would anyone want him as their own. But luna what would his mom think or say if she knew he thought that about himself. He already knew that answer to that she wouldn't want him to think like that. Moving some of his green dreaded hair behind his shoulders as he waited quietly.
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Post by revell on Jul 31, 2011 17:46:50 GMT -6
Revell sighed as he looked at the rising sun as he sat in the gardens his arms resting across his thighs his hands clapsing each other. He hadn't been able to sleep and as soon as the sky had greyed with the coming sun he'd come out here. He'd hoped maybe he could just walk of some nerves and relax but he hadn't. He leaned down running his figners through his hair. Both he and his wold were anxious for the meeting with Xavier.
Showing a rare burst of impatience Revell stood then started pacing trying to calm himself. His heart was racing and his wolf was going wild. The build up over the years was erupting in him, all the patience and the restraint. It had never been a problem he'd been glad to give Xavier time and space...things he hadn't been given but now with this meeting so close and tantalizing. He swallowed and started to strip. He had to run he'd let his wolf loose he'd run far work off some of the energy and by the time they got back it should be time to meet with Xavier.
His brother wolf took the reins and ran, out of the gardens and off into the woods and farther. He running to burn off the energy and get as far away from the place as it could. He knew his soon-to-be-mate wasn't there but was instead most likely asleep in his room. It was a long run and an even longer walk back.
Revell's brother wolf caught their soon-to-be-mate's scent as he drew near the gardens. It was a practice in restraint that Revell hadn't thought he or his wolf still possessed when his wolf walked to Xavier. His wolf slowly came around the last bush and looked at Xavier. He stood there for a moment before he continued up to Xavier and then rubbed his face against his leg. He sat down at Xavier's feet and looked up at him waiting for him to make the next move.
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Duke Xavier Hollows
Mi amore, you have my heart to hold and to keep, to warm it with your own.
Posts: 110
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Post by Duke Xavier Hollows on Jul 31, 2011 18:03:36 GMT -6
It had been a restless night for him he just wanted the next day to hurrry up and come. He had showered and just found a pack of mini cookies. Xavier was very anxious, very nervous and excited at the same time but worried to. His brother wolf was jumping up and down the entire time. Sitting there he waited and smelled a scent he knew around, sniffing the air some. Hearing paw steps he watched a wolf stand there watching him. He smiled and saw Revell come up to him, feeling the rub against his leg. "Hey there." Reaching out he rubbed Revell's ears for him, he knew the wolf that sat at his feet. "Revell is that you? Is it really you?" Xavier knew the scent quite well from being around him in the music hall two nights ago.
He was taken aback by who was sitting there with him, Xavier smiled and moved to crouch down with him. Moving his hands gently over the wolf's handsome face he thought that he was dreaming. "Am I dreaming or are you real?" Luna he hoped this was all real and not a dream, he didn't want to wake up from it to see he was alone. Closing his eyes his excited brother wolf was going wonky and rolling around feeling his soon to be mate was there. "Would you please shift to show me it's really you and not someone else?" Really wanting to see who he so longed for it to be.
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Post by revell on Jul 31, 2011 19:00:04 GMT -6
Revell and his wolf closed his eyes enjoying the feel of Xavier petting his ears. It felt so right. He licked Xavier's fingertips when he asked if it was him. It was really him, he stared into his eyes as he crouched down next to him leaning into his hands that caressed his face. Luna did it feel amazing to have Xavier touching him and conscious of it not like a few days ago when he'd been asleep.
When Xavier asked him to shift so he could be certain of who he was and that he wasn't dreaming, Revell blinked. He wanted him to shift, right then...he cast his gaze around looking for where he'd left his cloths before he'd gone for his cool off run. He found the pants and walked over to them shifting his back to Xavier.
He felt slightly embarassed naked before Xavier even though he could only see his back. His body had plenty of scars all over it from his long life. None of them could be considered out of the ordinary all looked like the type of scars you could aquire from fights or other parts of lycan life. That had been his father's intent when he'd done them. He'd recieved them whenever he'd fought what his dad had tried to do to him or his mother had decided he needed "disiplining". After pulling on his pants he pulled his shirt over his shoulders and buttoned it up the last views of his scarred skin hidden.
Turning he looked at Xavier with a sheepish smile. His wolf was restless wanting to touch and feel more. He was already drawing in deeper breaths, pulling in more of Xavier's scent. "It's me no one else."
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Duke Xavier Hollows
Mi amore, you have my heart to hold and to keep, to warm it with your own.
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Post by Duke Xavier Hollows on Jul 31, 2011 19:22:46 GMT -6
Watching the eyes closing he smiled and traced his ears gently with his finger tips. He kept petting his ears seeing how much he liked it, Xavier kept going smiling brightly. Xavier couldn’t believe it but it was really happening, it was Revell there with him really with him. Caressing his face more and down to his nose, gently rubbing it to get any itches for him. Asking him to shift he hoped he wasn’t overstepping his bounds by asking that. "I'm sorry if that was to forward, I shouldn't of asked you to." Watching him looking around for something he saw Revell’s clothes there, turning his back to Revell to give him some privacy and kept quiet. Rubbing at his bare upper arm he chewed on his bottom lip some. Standing there in black skinny jeans, black boots and a black tank top he looked almost like a statue at the moment in the garden.
Looking over his shoulder seeing him human his eyes widened when his eyes found the many scars on his back but didn‘t look down any. He knew Revell had a rough life but didn’t know exactly who was the cause of it. Quickly looking away he waited for the okay that he could turn around. Feeling he was being watched he turned around and blushed, his own wolf wanted to nuzzle Revell's brother wolf and snuggle to him. Gliding over he reached up and touched his face gently trying to keep his hand from shaking he was nervous still. His skin was all goosebumped but in a good way, he needed to be honest with him about what he was feeling at the moment, what he was fearing. "I was hoping it was you, I was worried it was someone else, luna I was afraid it was someone else." Xavier was shaking a little bit and didn't think he would even be able to stop himself.
"I'm sorry I'm shaking like this." Looking at him he was trying not to be so unsteady on his feet. "I remember your scent Revell." Taking in his scent he closed his eyes it was the same scent on the notes and all of the gifts left for him in his suite or in different places around the palace and the grounds for him to find, he enjoyed the scavenger hunts that had been set up for him to see what Anonymous wrote for him. Sometimes he thought it was all a joke someone was playing on him, just a cruel and nasty joke. "Anonymous? I never thought I would be seeing the person who's been watching over me for so long and giving me gifts I never dreamed about and be sent sweet notes I keep close to my heart." Looking at him his heart was there in his eyes, he needed to snuggle up to him he was still slightly shaking there on his feet. Not wanting to end up on his rear or anything thinking it would be way to embarrassing for him especially around Revell. Xavier felt his face flush and looked down slightly at the ground waiting for his words to him.
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Post by revell on Aug 2, 2011 20:42:40 GMT -6
Revell shook his furry head when Xavier asked if it was to forward of him. He didn't mind shifting for him but he didn't want to be naked, not for their first meeting it just wan't right. Besides there were all kinds of court gossips wandering around and he didn't want what was happening to get misconstrewed. When he shifted he stared at Xavier just taking in the back of his beloved not wanting this moment to end and yet begging in his mind for the next moment so he could turn around and Revell would be able to look at Xavier's face and into his eyes.
Revell held his breath when Xavier finally turned his eyes searching Xavier's face for his reaction to it being him. He wasn't disappointed and when Xavier glided over to him with that grace was all his own Revell felt his heart skip a beat while his wolf whimpered for a touch. His eyes saw the goosebumps and when Xavier spoke and caressed his cheek his own rose. He drew in a breath that was laden with Xavier's scent his own hand coming up and steading Xavier's as he held it against his cheek and nuzzled it with his slightly stubbled cheek. His words made Revell's wolf sing with joy, that Xavier had wanted it to be him so much that he'd been afraid it wouldn't be him, pure bliss filled Revell and he closed his eyes for a moment smiling as he drew in more of the sweet air.
When Xavier spoke again Revell opened his eyes and looked down at his mate. He cupped Xavier's face in his hands his thumbs unable to stay idle as they gently stroked Xavier's cheeks tracing his delicate features. He'd dreamed, hoped, Luna who was he kidding he'd spent hours praying that Luna would allow him to just brush Xavier's skin even if it was just the lightest of touches imaginable. Yet here he was now able to hold Xavier's face in his hands, he was humbled by the gift. When he closed his eyes Revell gently traced his fingers over them. He remembered his scent his wolf howled in joy, Xavier's scent had been branded on his senses since the moment he'd arrived and for his mate to remember his scent just filled his soul to the brim.
Revell thought he had been humbled when he'd been able to finally touch Xavier in earnest and not a secret caress taken while Xavier slept but when he spoke again he knew what it meant to be humbled in truth."My angel eyes wolf, I wish I could've given you the gifts you truly deserve but...I've failed to find anything that truly matches up to your greatness though I will spend the rest of my life searching for that gift that is truly worthy of you." He smiled softly at him when he opened his eyes again stroking his cheek once more before his hands slide down and softly cupped the sides of his neck his fingers caressing his jaw. He was unable to stop touching him, it was even worse now that Xavier was awake and looking at him. A few nights ago he'd been able to drag himself away as reluctant to do that as he'd ever been but now. Now he feared Xavier would have to pull away because he just couldn't.
When he saw the blush on Xavier's cheeks he felt his own growing warm and he smiled. "My notes aren't worthy of you either Xavier. They fail in all accounts to do you any justice in praise and description. I don't think any words or phrase exsist that are apt at displaying my affection or the way that everytime I see you...I feel like I'm looking at a lost angel." Revell blushed at his words he hadn't meant to say them like that but he had and now he was just left with a fear blooming in his chest that he'd said more than he should've and might have paranoid Xavier.
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Duke Xavier Hollows
Mi amore, you have my heart to hold and to keep, to warm it with your own.
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Post by Duke Xavier Hollows on Aug 2, 2011 21:34:58 GMT -6
Happy to see the head shake he smiled but understood about the wanting to be dressed part when meeting someone, he always carried a wolf backpack with him with clothes in it. Not wanting people to bug him about what happened that day or his mom to have a freak out. He just waited a while longer and felt eyes on him, he hoped he could turn around soon. His back was still facing Revell at that point and time, taking slow and deep breaths trying to calm himself down. Glancing around some with his eyes he bid his time until he was sure that Revell was fully dressed before he turned himself around. He was still the shy young man he had always been no matter how old he was, Xavier still blushed quite alot.
His reaction was pure happiness, fear and nervousness all at the same time. There was no disappointment there in his face or in his eyes. Xavier’s hips always swayed while he walked it wasn’t on purpose it just happened when he moved. Hearing his own wolf’s barks of hurry it up luna in his mind and ears he was before Revell. Not moving his shaking hand from Revell’s cheek he felt another hand over his to steady his own. Letting Revell hold his hand right here it was and give it a nuzzle Xavier felt the urge to lean against him for support, to almost keep himself from floating away into the heavens. He felt as light as air and didn't want it to end nor did he want to be away from Revell. Luna his brother wolf was whimpering so much in his ears at the moment, wanting Revell's attention to his ears and his muzzle.
Stopping himself from resting his cheek against Revell’s he watched a smile appear on Revell’s handsome face. Words were trying to form in his mind but there was so much going on in his thoughts right now he couldn’t form the words. Speaking what had finally formed in his mind his eyes looked up to meet his mate’s eyes, eyes that were always warm towards him. Leaning his unearthly looking face into Revell’s hands he felt gentle thumbs stroking his soft and delicate high cheek boned face. Not opening his eyes the entire time his lids were being touched and admitted he remembered Revell’s scent he wasn’t going to lie about it. Xavier wasn't afraid to admit it but how would he admit to Revell about his dreams, the dreams of them together luna how would he.
Xavier that night had felt arms around him and kept him safe and warm. Hearing him saying that he blushed really wanting to kiss him on the cheek for such sweet words. "You already gave me the greatest gift I could ever have gotten." Letting his eyes focus on Revell again, feeling the caresses to his cheek then the hands down his neck to rest there. His skin was all goosebumpy again he didn't mind the touches luna help him he liked it and enjoyed it. Not pulling away he didn't want to either, it was to hard and he gave into what his brother wolf was wanting the touches, the attention and the love. It was something he wanted just as much as his brother wolf was wanting it, his own mate someone to spend his life with. Someone to snuggle to and so much more he wanted that greatly.
His face grew warmer and even redder he watched Revell's face bright red like his was. "They're very sweet Revell and thank you for the beautiful words you've said in them. They're honest and I hold them close to my heart...Did I get lost from heaven to you? Am I a lost angel?" No one had ever said that to him before or called him a lost angel it was new but it didn't upset him or anything like that. Letting his body gently sink into Revell's stronger one he let his heart out of it's box and let it go into his mate's hands to keep always safe. Giving him a soft kiss on the cheek with his soft fully pouty lips he hoped he hadn't done anything wrong. Things were still pretty new to him about having a relationship and didn't want to mess anything up, or to have anything end up going wrong because of him. Thinking it was all pretty new to Revell as well and would be thrilled with slow things, just as Revell's letters to him had said a proper courting they would have.
"I'm sorry I shouldn't have done that, can you forgive me Revell?" He felt quite ashamed by being that forward but it felt natural and right to him, Xavier had never been kissed or anything that went with it. Well just in his dreams it all had happened and it had been perfect. "Would you think it bad of me if I said I've been dreaming about you?" Luna had he just told Revell and admitted it to him, he sure as hell had done so but couldn't take it back. But in truth he didn't want to take back what he said either it was the pure truth. "There's going to be a Masquerade Ball in the spring for Prince Henry and Lady Elina, would you umm like to go with me?" Had he just asked Revell to the ball, he would understand if Revell didn't want to go with him. "But I'd understand if you don't want to." Saying that his heart sank he wanted to go so badly with Revell to the ball to have their first date together.
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Post by revell on Aug 4, 2011 17:47:22 GMT -6
Revell cocked his head to the side lightly when he said he'd already given Xavier the greatest gift. Surely he didn't mean him, he wasn't a great gift. His fingers found their way into Xavier's hair letting the silken strands brush his knuckles and fingers before he found what he was looking for. He gently tugged it careful not to casue any pain as he played with the dread in his hair. "I'm not a worthy gift. I am the one who is blessed with the gifted of just your presence." He wound the dread through his fingers his other hand slid around Xavier's waist when he leaned into him. His wolf whimpered in pure exhileration as Xavier sank into him fitting perfectly against Revell's body.He looked at Xavier in all seriousness though as he spoke a smile quirked his lips."Would you think it selfish of me if I never wanted to return you to heaven?"
He was surprised by the kiss on the cheek and he closed his eyes in bliss. Revell loved the kiss and when Xavier asked him to forgive him his opened his eyes and looked at him wide eyed. Forgive him for what?"I can't think of anything that you need to be forgiven for." He rased a brow when Xavier told him he'd been dreaming about him. His cheeks colored, his mate had dreamt of him. He smiled shyly and rested his forehead against Xavier's."No...I've dreamt of you too mi amore and if its bad then I have been bad far longer than you I am sure." He nibbled on the inside of his lip as he waited to see Xavier's reaction to his words.
His dreams had been filled with Xavier for years not always intimate dreams but more times than not just holding his mate. Or when Xavier had still been a pup simply playing tag or throwing a ball around with him even just reading a book to him but as he'd gotten older Revell had dreamt of long walks, swimming, simply talking while cuddled in each others arms, simple mundane things but they always made him smile and happy. Even his wolf wanted to nuzzle with Xavier's wolf and curl up at night with him.
A bit of guilt filled Revell's chest as he thought about that night a few days ago when he'd been in Xavier's room while he slept. He'd heard him say his name and had prayed he'd been dreaming of him had even suspected it and the thought still made him smile. He licked his lips feeling he needed to tell Xavier that he'd been in his room whil ehe slept. "I've been in your room many times while you slept to leace the notes and gifts for you.....I never did anythign bad....until a few nights ago." He was looking away feeling that Xavier would be mad at him. At the time staying and holding Xavier and trying to banish his bad dreams had been a natural thing."Wh-When I left the note you had started panting and having a bad dream. I just wanted to comfort you and keep you from your nightmares. They have no right to plague you and ....I held you while you slept." His cheeks were red and he rushed to quickly add more. "I didn't stay long just till you calmed."
Revell suddenly felt mortified. He didn't feel worthy of Xavier's invitation to go to the Masquerade Ball. His wolf was over joyed by the invitation and wanted Revell to accept. When Xavier said has said he'd understand Revell not wanting to go he wanted to assure Xavier that he did but now that he'd told Xavier what he did a few nights ago."I would be honored to go with you but...After what I did a few nights ago. I don't expect you to forgive me and I would understand if you even wished to rescind the invitation."
For all of Revell's words he hadn't let Xavier go. Even though he didn't expect Xavier to forgive him for what he did a few nights ago he wasn't going to give up his mate over that event. There were going to be thigns he didn't do right and though he didn't always expect to be forgiven he hoped Xavier would have patience with him and stay with him.
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Duke Xavier Hollows
Mi amore, you have my heart to hold and to keep, to warm it with your own.
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Post by Duke Xavier Hollows on Aug 4, 2011 19:27:16 GMT -6
Saying what he had Xavier meant it to him Revell had been the greatest gift he had gotten in so long. Xavier felt the fingers in his hair he didn’t mind his hair being played with and it was gentle to. Getting a dread gently tugged at and played with he reached up, lightly threading his fingers through Revell’s hair gently and slowly. “You are Revell believe me you are, a gift one I'm proud to have.” He would work hard to help Revell to understand how amazing he really was and to bring his self-worth up. Not moving from the arm around him he felt like he fit perfectly against Revell, his hands moved from Revell’s shoulders to be around his neck. Looking at him blushing he shook his head that he didn’t think it was selfish. “No never.” He didn’t want to return to heaven anyways he was happy right where he was and didn’t want to leave anyone.
He was surprised he had the courage to do that and the guts to hold out his heart for another person or everyone else to see, but he didn't want it to be bruised or torn. Xavier hadn’t ever put so much emotion into something like a kiss but then again it was Revell he had kissed the cheek of so it was different. “Thank you I just don’t want to be to forward or be thought of like some of the courtiers around the palace.” Admitting that he had been dreaming around Revell to him just not the entire thing, luna how would he say everything that had happened in his dreams to him. Closing his eyes softly as his forehead was touched by Revell’s own forehead. “You have? No it’s not bad at all.” Hearing the mi amore he had heard close words to that, it meant my love. His heart was thumping in his chest again and snuggled deeper into him, where he felt safe. He wasn't afraid of Revell and what his heart was feeling it wasn't wrong or evil.
Xavier’s dreams when he had been younger were of snuggling to Revell in the gardens, playing different games, having fun picnics and such but when he hit his teenage years his dreams had all changed on him. His dreams had confused him they never had a girl in them just Revell, he had written them all down in his diary that he hid in his room. Xavier was lost in his lost in his thoughts about his dreams over the years and lately, they were getting more intense then anything causing his wolf to stir much more then it was when he was a child. His brother wolf hadn't felt such a pull from anyone not even a female when he was growing up from a little pup.
He felt there was something off and he waited to see what was up, tilting his head he looked at him. Seeing the lip lick he chewed on his bottom lip some, listening to what Revell was telling him his eyes went wide. Luna had Revell heard him talking in his sleep, he had a bad feeling that Revell had. “You heard me speak in my sleep didn’t you? What did I say?” He already knew what he had said but wanted to hear Revell say it right to him. Reaching up he laid his hand against Revell’s cheek and turned his face back to look into his eyes, Xavier wasn’t angry at him for anything. Blushing when he heard that and thought he needed to be honest and tell him what he had dreamt about. “I felt your arms around me I felt safe with you. Luna how do I admit this to you Revell, I wasn’t having a nightmare I was dreaming about you.”
His face was to red he looked like a raspberry and took a deep breath. “I dreamed I was at the pool taking a midnight swim, alright skinny dip and you walked from the shadows to me. I dunked my head and you walked into the water with me. I was blushing the entire time, and I was a bit embarrassed. My heart was thudding in my chest, I hadn’t ever seen more then my innocent eyes had ever seen in my life. My dream started to turn more heated, I gotten my first kiss and then way more then that from you.” Now he was really red faced that was the first time he had ever spoken about it outside of writing it.
Xavier felt mortified himself about what he had just said and just hoped Revell would say yes to his invitation. His wolf chased his tail and sat down with his ears drooped waiting. Hearing him he smiled relieved and snuggled to him. "I was so afraid you would say no." Hearing him he shook his head and looked into his eyes. "I'm not angry with you and there's nothing to forgive you did what you thought was right by staying there to calm me down when you thought I was having a bad dream Revell I can't be mad at you...No I don't wish to take back the invitation." He really wanted to go to the ball with Revell and wouldn't take anything back.
Not wanting to be let go of he cuddled deeper into him, his wolf howled happily. Resting his head on Revell's shoulder he closed his eyes, Xavier had a mate his first ever and the one he would spend his life with. "Thank you for not wanting to rush us that means so much to me, I know you've protected my innocence and everything pure about me. When the time comes I give the purity to you my mate." He knew that many people rushed others into things they weren't ready for, Xavier would be a bit scared when the huge things happened but thought Revell would be just as nervous as him. He stayed in the protective and tender arms of his mate, the only one he could really share his dreams and other things he never could with anyone else. Xavier knew that Revell knew he was a virgin and wasn't ashamed of that part of him and didn't have any reason to be either.
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Post by revell on Aug 6, 2011 17:39:39 GMT -6
Revell felt his heart beating quickly again when Xavier said he was a gift that he would be proud of. Hearing him say that made Revell's eyes soften and water slightly. All he wanted in life was for his mate to be proud of him and love him and here he was saying he would be proud of him and then the kiss on the cheek. Revell had never known he could be this content this easily but he should've known his mate would be able to make him feel this way without even thinking. He felt Xavier's hands in his hair and he sighed happily his wolf whimpering wanting Xavier to pet him again. "You are no where near close to their type of behavior Xavier." He looked down at him seriously the meer though that anyone would think of Xavier that way made his wolf growl and want to miam anyone who would think so poorly of his mate.
His mate was as innocent as an angel his soul just as white as an angel's wings. He'd watched Xavier grow he knew how innocent he was and if he had been any other way he'd still have loved and cherished Xavier. There was just something about Xavier that called to him, his wolf had felt the call immediately and everytime he was near Xavier the rightness of him being Revell's mate had only been reinforced. He rubbed his nose against Xavier's as he rested his forehead against his."No, it was not to forward and it meant a great deal to me. Just that you are letting me hold you has made me a very happy man but that you would grace me with such a gentle kiss like that. I can't begin to tell you how full you have made my heart."
Even as he told Xavier about how he'd been in his room while he slept his heart didn't empty. The fact that he still felt so content that he had Xavier in his arms even as he was telling him of his actions made him feel all the more guilty. Xavier's hand on his cheek felt amazing something he didn't feel worthy of as he looked back into Xavier's eyes as he asked him what he'd said in his sleep. Revell looked down at him his eyes begging for Xavier's forgiveness even as his riotous cheeks blushed at the memory of what Xavier had said as he'd nuzzled into his arms that night."You...you said you love me..."
When xavier began to tell him about how he hadn't been having a nightmare Revell wanted to tell him he didn't need to tell him that he could keep his dreams between him and his own heart. As he kept going though Revell found himself blushing and wanting to know more. His eyes widened at what Xavier said he'd done to him in his dreams. Revell felt torn at what he'd dreamt he was glad that he'd though of him when those things came to mind but at the same time he didn't want Xavier to think he would ever push him to do things before he was ready. He cleared his throat when Xavier finished, he'd had dreams of similar to Xavier's and though he couldn't deny that they had made him....happy on a physical level everytime he'd woken up from those dreams he'd felt ashamed that he would think things like that of his innocent mate. Even though he considered Xavier his mate he almost felt like his dreams were assumptions and he never wanted to assume he had a right to anything of his mate's.
When Revell had started leaving things in Xavier's room his wolf had felt he wasn't doing anything wrong and Revell had though the same. He'd never lingered in Xavier's room long except for a few nights ago and he'd never entered Xavier's room with an intent other than to leave him a note of gentle praise or a kind gift. He'd always been careful in his observing and protecting of Xavier and though some could think Revell had laid the foundation for his courting with the gifts and notes he'd given Xavier over the years, Revell had simply wanted his mate to know he was loved and that there was always someone there watching over him and protecting him.
Now as Xavier cuddled more into him telling him he still wanted to go to the Masquerade with him Revell found his mate had yet again left him humbled. Xavier could've easily gotten mad at Revell for what he'd done accused him of violating his trust and made Revell do many many things to make up for it which he would've happily done. However, Xavier simply told him he couldn't be mad at him and even now was thanking him. He wrapped his arms tightly around Xavier thank Luna repeatedly for the good grace his mate wore as a second skin.
As Xavier offered his purity to him when the time came Revell wanted to whimper his wolf hanging his head in Revell's minds eye. He wished desperetly to have his own purity to offer Xavier in return. There was no gift greater than what Xavier had offered and Revell had no gift to return him. Though he was still niave in relationships Revell did everything he could to be romantic and gentle. He was always slightly afraid that Xavier would not like the gifts or the notes and even today he'd been afraid Xavier would reject him. How foolish that thought had been but for his loving mate who was giving over more than he needed to without Revell even properly courting him as he should and still would. It left Revell sad and guilty.
Though he hadn't given up his purity willingly and many nights would wake up panting and sweating and in utter fear, he still did not have it to offer his mate. Revell closed his eyes bitterly he didn't want Xavier to see his hurt and anger at himself and his parents. There was only one day greater than the day they had finally died and yet even now they were trying to ruin the day that would outshine their death day.
Revell drew in a shuddering breath collecting himself as he shoved those many torterous memories away. He opened his eyes and looked down at Xavier pained."My angel eyed wolf...I would never push you and when that day does come I fear....I fear I can't return your gift with my own...." Revell swallowed and put some distance between him and Xavier. He stood away from Xavier holding only his mates hands in a loose gentle grip."I....I have been without my purity for longer than you have exsisted." And Revell hated every second of it. He couldn't meet Xavier's eyes he was to ashamed of what he'd let his parents do to him.
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Duke Xavier Hollows
Mi amore, you have my heart to hold and to keep, to warm it with your own.
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Post by Duke Xavier Hollows on Aug 6, 2011 20:06:11 GMT -6
Xavier meant that and would always think of Revell as a gift, never one he wanted to lose or to ever be torn. He was proud to have his mate in his life and proud of Revell being the man he wanted to be and not what another wanted him to be either which took alot of courage. Looking him in the eyes he smiled and lightly caressed him on the temple with the back of his hand and with his fingers. Touching his hair he closed his eyes hearing that from him. “Thank you that means so much to me.” He was the way he was and Xavier was proud of his innocence, he wouldn’t have it any other way. Rubbed on the nose he gave a nose nuzzle back, letting his forehead be covered. “I feel safe in your arms where I’m away from harm and where you’ll always protect me from the outside world.” He felt safe with his mom but it was a different kind of safe, she was his mom and he was her little boy.
He carefully listened to Revell’s words to him he wished he was shorter so he could lay his head against his mate’s chest but he couldn’t change what he was given height wise. Giving him another kiss on the cheek he did want to have his first kiss but was it to soon for it. Holding onto him still he needed to know what he said in his sleep. “Please Revell I need to know.” Looking at his an inch taller then him mate in the eyes, seeing what was there he felt Revell’s cheeks got hot and change color again. “I felt in my heart I would say it, I felt you were in my room with me.” Admitting that to him he blushed and looked at him, luna he needed to just talk about what he had dreamed he couldn’t keep it a secret anymore. He didn't feel ashamed about it and it felt good to him not to have to hide it. "I've been dreaming about you for such a long time Revell, it feels nice to tell you."
Telling Revell about his dream he was blushing the entire time, luna why couldn’t he stop thinking about it. Not thinking he could even keep what he was hiding in his heart a secret anymore from Revell. Letting what he dreamed about pass right through his lips he looked up at Revell he was still blushing from cheek to cheek. His heart was thumping in his chest he felt his brother wolf stirring and wanting out. Once everything was out he felt better and more calm, his dreams had gone on as such for years and over time had gotten more intimate. Hearing Revell clearing his throat once he had stopped speaking Xavier looked into his eyes wondering what he was thinking about at that moment and time. Leaning his cheek against Revell’s cheek his eyes closed he tried to get his mind wrapped around being here with his mate, the one who had his heart since the day he had been brought to court.
Xavier loved to find the notes and the gifts in his room ever since he had been a child, it always had been fun for him to find something new like a brand new plush animal, art supplies, a new book and other goodies. He had excelled at reading when he was a child but had many people who had taught him, his mom, his nanny, her husband and Revell but there were some others who did as well so he enjoyed reading the sweet notes by himself when he found them there on his bed or on his pillow waiting for him. Thinking back to all of the gifts he had ever been given by Revell he smiled inside, he loved the chocolates, the flowers of all colors and kinds left on his bed in a wrapped up white box. Laying his hands on his mate’s shoulders he leaned his head against his shoulder softly, his wolf was curled up all calmed down but still whimpering for his mate’s wolf’s love and attention just for him. Closing his eyes he took in Revell’s scent again relaxing against him he felt so safe and content.
He cuddled more into Revell’s body and looked at him, wanting to have a special night with Revell at the masquerade ball the first of many he hoped. Not one to just get all pissed off or just plain mad at anyone unless he had a valid reason for it. With Revell he didn't and understood why his mate had done it that way, it was to slowly get him used to his attentions and in a different way then what others gave him attention wise. It was quite different to him and he was liking it a great deal. In Revell's arms he let his hands wrap around his mate's neck. Not moving from his arms he wasn't afraid of him and didn't have any reason to be afraid of him either.
Giving the most precious part of himself to Revell when it was time for it, he wanted it to be special. He looked at him able to tell something was wrong and nuzzled his cheek with his own gently. Leaving his cheek right where it was he hoped being all snuggled up to Revell was helping him even if it was just a little bit. "Sweet one." Since this was his first ever meaningful relationship and romance he didn't want it to be ruined by ill words or by any anger on his part. He was always flattered and in awe by the gifts and notes Revell bestowed upon him or just by simply snuggling him it made his heart full of happiness. A happiness he never wanted to lose but to always have with him for the rest of his life.
It was plain to see to Xavier there was something on Revell's mind he could see it in his eyes as clear as day light. "I'm sorry if what I said upset you Revell but I do wish very much to give it to you on our wedding night, I mean if you wish to marry me but if you don't it's alright I won't be mad." Luna did he just say that and had said it, not wanting to take it back at all. Taking slow and deep breaths he gave him another soft kiss on the cheek. His pulse was racing at the moment and he shook a bit against him, Xavier felt so free for once in his life to be who he was really meant to be and not have to hide behind a mask of lying to himself. Trying to contain his wolf's happiness and his want to be out to get love and pets from their mate. The happy wolf's tail wagged a mile a minute.
He just wanted to be held and cuddled by his mate it just be them in the gardens together. "Please don't let go." Xavier wasn't upset over anything he felt like his head was swimming and didn't want to have Revell's strong arms move from around him for a second, it felt perfect. His wolf was restless and needed to be let out before he went wolfie bonkers and came out by himself to pounce on Revell and lick him. Swallowing hard he still felt pretty light headed and closed his eyes, taking the time to savior the time right there with his mate he didn't want to end. "Luna please don't let go of me Revell, please don't let me go." Listening to Revell's heart beating he listen to his own beating just as quickly as his mate's was. Luna would he be able to let go of Revell to go to his own room that night? Xavier didn't want to leave his side ever, he felt his skin warm again and his lonelt heart fill up.
He didn't know much about Revell's past but did want to know about his life when his beloved mate was ready to tell him about it. Seeing that he worried his Revell was hurting more then he was letting on. Tilting his head some he looked up at him from the corner of his eye. Feeling the shuddering coming from his mate he looked up at him from under his mega long eyelashes, wishing he knew what was bothering Revell. There was the pain he was worried about. "I know you wouldn't ever push me and I trust you my beloved wolf." Hearing that and watched what he was doing, Xavier stood there. With his hands taken he lifted up his mate's hands and kissed the top of them. Listening to what he said he was angry at Revell's parents for taking advantage of their innocent son like that. As sure as hell Xavier knew parents real parents never did such a thing to their own child.
Moving Revell's face gently with his hand to look into his eyes wanting him to see his own eyes and into them. "Sweetheart you did nothing wrong okay not a thing, the people you trusted to love and care of you the people you called mom and dad are the ones who did the wrong by you, they were wrong to do what they did to you." He didn't tolerate people who did that sort of stuff to their own child. Cupping Revell's face with both of his hands. "I know you didn't want it and unless someone wants it, it doesn't count you're still pure and innocent. I promise you it didn't remotely count." Whispering to him he hoped his words would help him. "Having something taken away like by force isn't ever the victim's fault it's the person who did the takings fault." That's what he knew in his heart and that wouldn't ever change. "But I promise you it will be special for us when the time comes, my love." Making that promise to him he gave him a gentle kiss on the lips, it was his first real kiss and it was with the man he loved.
He was gentle and wouldn't do it again unless Revell wanted it, the kisses. Xavier couldn't and wouldn't ever be pushy with his mate just like Revell wouldn't be in such a way with him. Not in anyway, shape or form insensitive he wanted to make Revell comfy with him and not make him feel like anything terrible would end up happening to him. "You're safe here Revell I promise no one is going to hurt you again, they'll have to get through me first." Hoping that would help Revell even if it was just a little bit. "I swear to you you'll always be safe here, you have Vaan, my mom, so many others and me, you'll never be alone or made to feel like they made you feel." He didn't want Revell to feel alone like he had for so long, it had been awful to always feel so alone. Even being with so many people in a room with him he didn't feel any better just worse. But now his wolf and he himself didn't feel that way anymore but happy.
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Post by revell on Aug 18, 2011 10:39:33 GMT -6
Revell drew in a breath of Xavier’s scent as his cheek lay against his. It was comforting and he was drawing strength from it. He didn’t want tell Xavier about his past not yet but he still felt he should at least tell him that he had no gift to returned. The endearment Xavier called him made his heart skip a beat. His sweet loving mate using such a tender name towards him made him want to smile even as he was plagued by thoughts he just wanted buried and forgotten. Revell had only planned to take another moment to collect himself before telling Xavier but he started speaking before Revell could tell him what was truly upsetting him. Revell shook his head lightly when Xavier spoke of marriage, that wasn’t it he hadn’t been offended. His heart was racing a light blush did return to his cheeks when Xavier mentioned it.
He cupped his mate’s face and looked down at him. “No we’ll wait that’s fine. I do want to marry you but you deserve a proper courting, a long one with lots of gifts, affection, and private dates.” Revell wanted to marry Xavier even though there was no doubt that they were mates in his mind he felt that a courting and the ensuing wedding were what he deserved. He always wanted their relationship to be special and he wanted them to have many great memories; nothing should be rushed or skipped. Nothing should be forced…
He closed his eyes drawing in a much needed breath to reorient himself he had to tell his mate. He told Xavier how he didn’t want to push him ever and that he didn’t have a gift to return. His mate’s pleading not to be let go only made it all the more harder and painful to put distance between them. He hadn’t been able to severe all connect still holding his hands, but he felt to dirty to soiled to be holding such a lovely and pure soul as his mate at that moment. It was like his past was a sticky black tar and as Revell thought of it bringing it into the present he didn’t want it to get caught on his mate and stain his perfection in anyway. His angel eyed wolf showed a kindness only he could possess when he kissed his hands and then turned his face gently to look at him. It took Revell a minute but when he finally met Xavier’s eyes and his mate spoke those words, it was like he’d seen straight into his soul and it hurt but at the same time it felt better.
He closed his eyes letting his mate’s voice sooth his wounds as he cupped his face. He should’ve known he couldn’t hide anything from his mate and that thought didn’t scare or upset him it just made the rightness of Xavier being his mate all the more real. Revell turned his head kissing one of Xavier’s palms with a gentle kiss then turning and giving the same attention to the other. They were tender kisses showing trust and affection as well as thanks for Xavier’s words.
Revell knew he had been a victim but hearing it said out loud for the first time made him wince slightly. He was ashamed of what had happened it would always mark who he was and part of him hated it. Hated that his parents had done that to him violating a sacred trust between parent and child and repeating the action with more malevolence each time. More than anything though he did blame himself even if Xavier said it wasn’t his fault that they had been in the wrong Revell felt that he too was also in the wrong. He was in the wrong for not fighting back for being too scared to say anything….for letting them control him with fear…
How could he deserve a mate when he’d let that happen and not fight against it more. Sure he’d tried to run had attacked back it hadn’t helped he’d been too young too weak. He’d let them break him, it was something he barely admitted but they had. Even now all these years later he still felt that broken part of him, even after working so hard in Vaan’s back to become strong and protect his packmates. He just wasn’t the same….wasn’t….completely- whole. The soft kiss Xavier place on his lips made it all rush out and he started crying. All the frustration, sadness, the need to be safe and being let down by the very parents that should have always made him feel safe and loved… it all came out and he held Xavier tight as he sobbed.
The tears rushed down his face as his loving perfect angel eyed wolf told him he’d be safe now he wouldn’t be alone. He had a pack of people to protect him. Revell didn’t feel embarrassed by his crying or less of a man for doing it in front of the one person he always wanted to be strong and dependable for; it just felt right. His mate had seen through him as only he could and sharing the hurt was makings it truly become a memory to be forgotten. He cried till he had no more tears to shed, and over this matter he knew he wouldn’t cry or feel utterly defenseless again. It would sadden him yes make him feel a little upset or angry but it wouldn’t continue to shape him anymore, his mate and their life together would.
Sniffing and wiping his face on his shirt sleeve clearing away the tear tracts and the pain, he looked down at his mate. He rested his forehead against his sighing softly as he closed his eyes. He just need a moment to catch his breath from all the sobbing and releasing of that pent up anguish and betrayal. ”Thank you.” He whispered softly pure relief and love in his voice. It was a thank you for seeing what only a mate could see, for loving him despite his terrible past, and for being able to offer the comfort he needed. For still being there.
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Duke Xavier Hollows
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Post by Duke Xavier Hollows on Aug 18, 2011 13:57:05 GMT -6
He was hoping he was giving Revell some comfort even if it was little a little. Xavier didn't hold anything against Revell even after Vaan had told him about Revell. What he called Revell was a sweet endearment just for him. Rubbing his hands lightly against his beloved back trying to comfort him more. Speaking again he saw the head shake he saw Revell wasn't offended by what he had said do he was happy and relieved. Wondering if Revell did want to marry him someday but wouldn't force the answer to be given to him. Feeling his face cupped he looked up at his mate just an inch shorter then him since he wasn't wearing any shoes but didn't mind it. Listening to him he leaned his face into his mate's large hand. "Thank you and want to marry you so much...Yes I love the idea of a proper courting." He thought a proper courting was a very sweet perfect idea and knew that Revell would be wanting permission from his mom and from Vaan who was like a father to Xavier. Just the thoughts of lots of gifts, affection and private dates made his stomach flutter.
Lightly brushing his fingers over his mate's closed eyes, Xavier was very concerned about Revell. What bugged and hurt his mate hurt and bugged him. Feeling unless you give that part of yourself willingly, nothing was changed. He had put two and two together but Vaan had told him about Revell's parents and the terrible things they did but he wasn't going to force Revell into telling him. Pleading with him he didn't want to be out of his arms and from his side. Not moving his hands away but laced fingers with his mate. Xavier had been through things in his life but it was nothing compare to Revell. He would tell Revell that Vaan told him but not right now but none the less he would be honest about how he had figured it out. Brushing his lips against his mate's hands again he lightly brushed Revell's cheek with the back of his hand, staring into his eyes still. He had always known the eyes were the gateway into the heart and the soul, his mate had a beautiful heart and soul. "I know you're hurting and you feel betrayed, those people aren't worth your time." Peace was something everyone needed and he would always do what he needed to so Revell could have that peace.
His slender fingers lightly rested against his mate's cheeks, being 100% honest with him. He didn't sugar coat anything he believed in being completely honest with others. "You know you can tell me anything and everything my darling, you never have to worry about anything with me." His soft eyes were still locked with Revell's, he didn't believe in scaring anyone or making another person feel uncomfortable but to always give them a safe haven to come to. Watching him kissing each of his palms with tender kisses he smiled. Leaning his head up he kissed Revell on the forehead tenderly and left his lips there to linger against his skin for a little bit of time.
He felt the mouth movement against his palms and looked at him. Xavier had seen other people who had been abused by people they trusted growing up in the palace. Taking to them over the years he always gave them a friendly ear. Listening to them he watched the shame washiing over their faces and always blaming themselves for something they hadn't wanted or welcomed either. Thinking the abused were never in the wrong and it was a control thing always by the abusers, making the victim think they were doing to be blamed and could have done something to stop it.
Xavier had thought about that for so long and would continue to listen to people who needed a friendly ear and help to find their strength to heal. "Baby listen to me, you didn't do anything bad or wrong, I know you blame yourself for it happening, that's what abusers do they make the victims think it's their fault when it's not." Telling Revell what the truth really was about his awful parents. Doing a little something to help Revell's mind to focus on something different. Hugging Revell close as he cried and protectively held him. Rubbing Revell's back he hide him from the world. "Shhhh, it's okay." Being strong for his mate he would help him anyway he could. "Let it all out, you're safe and sound." Whispering to him he kissed the side of his head, boy he wished Revell's parents were still alive so he could rip them to shreds.
Letting Revell cry iit all out he would make sure his mate, his sweet loving mate was always safe and never alone again. He would speak to Vaan and his mom about Revell the next time he saw them. Gently stroking his back with one hand and his hair with the other, Xavier kissed the side of his head. "The hurt will stop I promise you, those people can't lay another hand on you anymore." He would give his own strength to Revell Xavier had enought for the entire Isle really, he got his strength from his mom and was damn proud of it. Not letting go of him he nuzzled him on the side of the neck, gently."If anything is ever making you sad or is bothering you, please come to me." He would always be there for Revell for the rest of their lives, Xavier wouldn't ever leave him he loved Revell. "You never have to be afraid or ashamed to talk to me about anything." Looking at Revell, who was his angel.
Hearing the sniffling he watched him and reached up moments later, lightly wiping the rest of his tears away for him. Forehead to forehead with him he kissed his closed eyes. Letting him catch his breath Xavier wrapped his arms back around him. "You're welcome sweet one and always." Whispering back to him he heard the pure relief there and the love. He wouldn't ever leave Revell and comfort him for the rest of his life. The past was the past and nothing more, he sure as hell wouldn't give up on his mate and just let him hurt that was something Xavier wouldn't stand for, he wouldn't. Wishing he would have brought some tissue with him like he did if he was out in the garden but that morning he had forgotten to bring any. Caressing his mate's sad face he kissed him tenderly on the cheek. "The past is just that past I won't let it hurt you that I promise, I will always be your shelter from the world Revell." Looking into his eyes.
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Post by revell on Aug 20, 2011 16:35:17 GMT -6
Revell took comfort in his mate’s arms as he let the tears fall soaking his poor lover’s shirt. His arms loosened only slightly around Xavier’s waist as he relaxed under his gentle stroking. He drew in a shuddering breath his lungs still spasming under the sadness that was working its way out of Revell finally. He’d held the misery in containing it till those few brief times when he’d found a place to hide and cry it out though as he’d grown older he’d stopped crying and just shoved the sorrow down to be dealt with at another time especially as Xavier had grown in the court. The sobbing stop the last of the tears falling from Revell’s cheeks while Xavier nuzzled his neck and said those words that only continued to truly heal him and make him whole. He nodded to Xavier’s words as he sniffled wiping his face and trying to calm his breathing. He’d cried like a child with pure abandon his woe breaking loss and like a child after crying he was starting to feel better. All those tears had washed him clean in a sense though it had been his mate that had truly made him feel clean.
He gave Xavier a small smile as he helped wipe away his tears. Xavier’s tenderness was the balm that Revell need to heal and stop letting the thoughts of his parents upset him. The kisses over his eyes and all the words Xavier had offered him just made him fall even further in love with his mate and he never expected nor did he want to ever stop falling for his mate. Revell looked into Xavier’s eyes the sadness slowly leaving his own. He had his mate here with him there was no need to dwell on the past anymore but he was truly grateful to his mate for all that he had said and how readily he had offered comfort to him. He took Xavier’s hand within his own his thumb caressing over his knuckles softly.”Thank you mi amore, truly thank you. I will always be here for you to come to with your pains as well whether they are old or new.” He licked his lips clearing his throat it was rough from the tears he’d shed and the sadness that had so constricted it while he’d sobbed on his mate’s shoulder. He brought Xavier’s hand to his mouth placing a kiss on his knuckles, this wasn’t what he’d expected for their first meeting. If anything Revell had planned on simply talking with Xavier maybe a hug but revealing his hurt and shame hadn’t been on his list. Revell hadn’t planned on even broaching the topic of his past for a long time and yet his mate wouldn’t allow it, and honestly Revell didn’t mind it. Sharing the past now and getting rid of its hold on him only allowed him to truly enjoy his mate’s companionship from here on out.
Swallowing Revell smiled as he looked over his mate and at his wet shirt. ”I didn’t mean to do so much crying today. I’m sorry to have gotten your shirt so wet.” He unbuttoned his own shirt and took it off offering it to Xavier and moving away from the topic of his sadness and past. It was done with and now he just wanted to focus on looking after his mate and making him smile. ”Here I don’t want you to have to walk around in such a wet shirt. I would be greatly upset with myself if all my crying caused you to get sick.” His wolf wanted Xavier to take the shirt as well and wear something that smelled of them, to walk around wearing their scent on him to remind him of his mate and to tell others who his mate was. It may have been a possessive thought but Revell couldn’t deny that it was a thought he liked just as much as the thought of having Xavier’s scent on him. Though as he stood there holding his shirt for Xavier he began to doubt his action thinking that maybe Xavier wouldn’t see it as him looking out for his mate’s health. He was always being misunderstood and he feared that Xavier might think his action to forward.
Being misunderstood was nothing new to Revell, it had happened and still did happen with great frequency though he did his best to avoid it. Revell’s up bringing had severely limited his interacting with others and social interaction was a bit of a weak point for him though since being within Vaan’s pack he had begun to grow there were still many times his experience was lacking. Those times had gotten him into trouble where an action he thought was fine and normal was not to someone else. He tended to stay silent during court functions and simply watch and further his experience through observation speaking only when spoken to and answering any and all questions directed at him with the most direct and poliet answer he could. Even when just with his pack he tended to watch and learn from them and their interactions though his wolf handled well on his own when the pack went hunting. Some things were just instict like hunting with his pack and knowing who his mate was.
The day Xavier had been brought to court and Revell had caught his scent there had been no doubt his wolf had known. It had been a bit alarming to Revell, he'd not known what to do or how to go about things for the first few days his wolf not offering any help other than asserting that the child was their mate. The first few years Revell had been at a loss as to how to go about with the knowledge though he'd accepted it and he'd simply shadowed the child whenever he could making sure no harm came to him. There had been a few incidents over the years where his attentions had been looked at as odd but with every incident Revell got better and better at hiding his interest in the pup and soon no one even noticed when he was looking after Xavier and not jut simply going about his own business. Though he had never been able to truly hide anything from Dawn and he had a feeling she was constantly aware of what he was doing concerning the pup she considered her own.
Now though standing there holding his shirt for Xavier he started to feel mortified. Was this not apporiate he'd seen another do a similar thing once offering his mate his jacket when it had been cold out and the man's mate had accepted the coat eagerly. Revell had thought this was the same principle but maybe it wasn't maybe it only applied when it was actually very cold and it was a jacket being offered not a shirt. He felt his cheeks starting to heat.
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Duke Xavier Hollows
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Post by Duke Xavier Hollows on Aug 20, 2011 19:04:31 GMT -6
He didn't care his shirt was being stroked it matter not to him, it was his mate who was so upset so he remotely didn't care about it. Xavier felt Revell's arms loosen and him relax, he rubbed his back more. "Shhh let it all out baby, there's no shame in crying when you need to."Holding him protectively, looking around to make sure they had privacy he didn't want Revell being made more upset by anyone. He knew how old Revell was and how long he had really kept his secrets and his hurt buried for, that certainly could cause more harm then good but he wasn't going to scold him for it. Not stopping the sobbing it wasn't up to him it was up to Revell when he felt he could stop. Giving him all the love and nuzzles he could to comfort him. He didn't sugar coat things and said what was on his mind, he had gotten it from his mom. "You can always trust me Revell." Xavier wasn't going to let him down or make Revell feel the trust he gave was misplaced. Now he really wished he would have brought some tissue with him.
Helping Revell again with his wet face he hoped he felt even a little better, Xavier loved his mate and that wouldn’t ever change. Locking eyes with Revell’s blood shot eyes he saw the sadness vanishing it made his wolf feel better. When his hand was taken he felt Revell’s thumb caressing his soft knuckles he kissed him on the cheeks. “You’re welcome mi amore, thank you my love that means so much to me, I know I can talk to you about anything and everything.” He trusted that he could talk to him about sensitive things that upset or embarrassed him to much to talk to his mom or Vaan about. Hearing the clearing of the throat and the way it sounded, he would make sure Revell had some hot tea to sooth his throat. Closing his eyes the moment his knuckle was kissed by his mate he kissed Revell’s knuckle gently. Okay he hadn’t thought their meeting would shift into something of a sensitive nature like that. He wondered if Revell knew about his past his mom dying after having him and his dad killing himself. Xavier used to have terrible nightmares as a child and that made him unable to sleep normally for a long time. So his mom would have to sit in his room with him until he could get back to sleep which took a while.
Xavier was happy that Revell felt better and looked down at his wet shirt. “No love it’s quite alright you deserve to have a good cry..It’s just a shirt so it’s not a big deal.” Seeing that he blushed and stood there in a wet tank top but it wouldn’t take long to dry. Seeing the shirt handed to him he smiled and didn’t want him to be cold either. "Will you be alright without a shirt I don't want you to be cold." His own wolf wanted to snuggle into the shirt and smell Revell all over his fur. Not seeing anyone around he slipped his tank top over his head, sliding Revell’s shirt over his bare chest, snuggling into it. “Thank you..Thank you for being concerned about my health.” Xavier felt his wolf sniffing at their mate’s scent and snuggling happily into it. “My wolf says thank you to.” Blushing when he looked at his mate seeing his chest was bare, moving away from the sad topic to something better, calmer and happier. Buttoning the shirt up button by button until it was all done he smiled and moved his fingers gently over the fabric. He really liked the shirt and thought it looked wonderful on Revell, it brought out his eyes and every wonderful quality about him.
Thinking Revell was a sweet and very much a gentleman he reached up and touched his red and hot face. "You're very sweet do you know that? Very much a gentleman and always careful with me." Brushing his thumb over Revell's cheek he was happy to be surrounded by Revell's scent and to know he was spoken for so no one could even remotely try to get at him unless they were that stupid. He would leave his tank top on the bench to dry but he was still more worried about Revell not wanting him to get sick because he didn't have a shirt on. Luna he was blushing he was seeing Revell with no shirt on and really seeing it. His hand was shaking at the time he laid it on his mate's chest to feel his heart beating. Xavier's head felt like it was spinning to him again and leaned against his body gently. Taking slow and deep breaths Xavier inhaled his mate's soothing scent, it was relaxing his wolf and putting him into an extra happy wolfie mood.
His hands moved under his mate's arms and gripped the back of his shoulders, praying to Luna he wasn't being to forward with him. "I never thought I would have such a wonderful man in my life. For so long I was so afraid you had your eye on someone else in court and felt my heart always sink with that feeling it wasn't me." Needing to get that out he had been waiting for so long to tell him his fears. Hoping Revell didn't hold that against him but would understand how he felt. He didn't like feeling like he was just some pup and having to always worry that his dreams were going to end up as some nightmare. Thinking he needed to tell him about that night in the music hall that he had heard what had been said between his mom and Revell, it was only fair that he did but not tonight he wouldn't.
"I always want to be in your arms I never want to leave them Revell, this is where I belong." Sometimes growing up he never really felt like he belonged anywhere but had figured out where he did belong when he was old enough to understand he belonged with his mom, Vaan and the pack but most of all he belonged with Revell that wouldn't change. Still against him he felt at peace and didn't even think about his grief of loosing his parents anymore, he had felt like it was his fault for his mom dying and his dad killing himself but what had he been thinking, none of it was his doing. "Would you like to walk with me through the garden?" It would be a nice thing to be able to do with his mate and to have some private time together without any pained thoughts or anything else getting in the way of them being happy together. Closing his eyes he snuggled his forehead into Revell's neck and didn't move his face, he was to happy right where he was.
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