A Trail of Gifts and Promises(Xavier)

[Duke Xavier Hollows]

Xavier thought about what had been written in his diary on the inside front page. He smiled then leaned over nuzzling Revell and leaned his head against his shoulder. His diary was very precious to him and didn't want anything to happen to it. It would kill him if it was lost or taken by someone to use against him or worse make him feel stupid about what he had written down, his private thoughts he wanted just to be his own. But now he wanted to share things with Revell the only man in his life he knew wouldn't judge him for anything he was feeling or what he had written down or had drawn either. Xavier had done many small drawings and a few paintings in his diary when he couldn't write down what he had been feelings at the moment. He wondered if Revell had a diary of his own and would ask him sometime if he did so he could get him a specially made one, with a private lock on it. A brand new one to celebrate his present and future.

He had a few diaries himself and had a huge one that Revell had surprised him with on his last birthday with that special lock on it so he always kept that hidden away. It contained all of his cute, sensual and romantic dreams about Revell and him, his happy thoughts and his scared one as well. His thoughts wondered back to just how many diaries he had tucked away there were so many when he finished with one he found another all wrapped up with a rose on top. It was just like Christmas all year round to him with all of the little things that Revell gave him and did for him. He would often go back and read his earlier diaries under the covers with a large snack then hide them all alway again to let the past be just that the past. Xavier would always help Revell heal from the terrible things that happened to him in his past and was being helped by his beloved mate to heal from anything that happened to him in his own past. It was important to him to let Revell know that nothing bad could or would ever happen to him again. People would have to get passed him first to get at Revell even then he wouldn't move from his mate's side for anything.

So very stuffed and settled himself into Revell's arms and lap, he was enjoying himself so much. Sighing happily he cuddled deeper into him, resting his hand back over his love's heart, held he closed his eyes. The poem Revell spoke to him was one he held close to his heart it was the first one he had ever learned when he had been old enough to really understand the meaning of it, the true beautiful meaning of it. Softly humming to his mate he smiled and thought about a few different things, things he wanted to share with his mate but exactly where to start since there was so much. Opening his eyes he had spoken a few more lines of the poem to Revell and looked down at the ground a moment. "I remember the plush lycan you gave me when I was just 12 years old, it's you in lycan form. You had it made with your special sounds on it and on certain places on the plush like the ears the plush whimpered in happiness." That plush was his favorite and he did sleep with it next to him on his pillow. The fur was so soft like Revell's was and the same shade, it was a plush version of his beloved mate how could he love anything more.

Xavier was blushing from ear to ear hearing Revell's laughter at what he had said. He did think he was creepy and knew that others did to. It had started when he hit 12 years old when everything changed for him, he was getting taller, filling out, his voice was changing it had been a very awkward time for him that was for sure. It had made him not want to talk all that much to anyone but to his mom and Revell who he knew wouldn't poke fun at him for being squeaky voiced. Xavier had let his hair grow out all of his life and hadn't wanted to cut it off since he had no need to plus he loved how it looked. With how his body had changed he wore clothes he felt good in and ones that suited him the fact was his mom always had taken his clothes shopping, makeup shopping and shopping for his jewelry in different parts of the world. But a huge change came when he started when he started wearing eye makeup at 12 it was how he expressed himself and it made people look at him like he was creepy. Being kissed on the lips he kissed him back nodding slowly. "The other kids around thought I was creepy." Admitting that to him he listened to him and leaned his cheek into his mate's stroking fingers. "Thank you mi amore I needed to hear that from you." That meant so much to him to hear those words from his mate. "My mom once told me when she was teaching my how to do my eyes was as long as I loved myself and take pride in how I look that people who don't like it are just jealous or hate themselves." He had never forgotten that.

Letting his hand be taken and kissed it looked at him, seeing how serious Revell was at the moment. Intently listening to every word he was saying Xavier understood why Revell had those worries and didn't hold it against him. "You're not creepy at all Revell. I know you didn't want to scare me or make me uncomfortable...I'm far from being a genius my mom just raised me well is all..No a young child doesn't and may think it's frightening or something bad." Fully understanding the meaning of what Revell was saying to him, he had seen young kids with crushes on older lycans and it didn't turn out well when they were older it became heartache instead. "I remember one of the girls here in court having a crush on one of the older lycans but the guy already had a mate, it was another guy I think. It was a major crush she didn't like being rejected and killed herself in the woods." He didn't want that for anyone else and wouldn't hurt himself for someone he couldn't have it wasn't right. Xavier had figured out the difference between a crush and true love when he had gotten old enough to sort out both feelings. Knowing which was just puppy love and which one was a deep connection he didn't want to ever go away.

Stetching his legs out along his mate's out stretched legs he watched the sun hitting the waves. "The night in the music hall after I went to get my mom and I both a snack I heard you and her talking. I heard everything that was said from outside of the door. I didn't want you to leave the room mi amore, my mom was right it would have broken my heart if you had left before I came back." He still had to tell his mom she was nuts for thinking that he didn't need her much anymore. "She's nuts for thinking that I don't need her much anymore, no matter how old I get she's my mom and I'll always need her." Being plain and straight about that, that's how he felt. Thinking about all of the times she took care of him when he was ill, had a case of the sniffles or couldn't sleep his mom was always there for him he would always be there for his mom. Cuddling his beloved Revell, his soul mate he smiled, rubbing thoses with him. "I love you so much." Xavier smirked thinking about the holidays when he would cook Revell's favorite cookies and he would find the entire huge plate empty then found Revell with frosting all over his adorable wolf nose in a corner of the kitchen licking at his paw paws cleaning them off. "Mr. Frosting Nose." Being cheeky with him that was the nickname Xavier had given Revell long ago and had missed using it. "I made some more of your favorite cookies early this morning." It would be a brilliant idea to him if they made a nice fire in their suite with some homemade hot cocoa and some cookies to eat, Xavier was all for the cuddling to his mate.

[revell]

Revell blushed when Xavier mentioned the plushie. It had been a whim that had caused Revell to have it made. Xavier had been around 12 and Revell had been starting to feel deep pangs of longing to be with his mate, his wolf hadn’t helped with them constantly howling in his head. So Revell had sent the gift, anonymously of course, to Xavier after having it made to mimic his wolf as much as possible. It had been a relief at how quickly his wolf had calmed with the knowledge that their, then soon to be mate, had a piece of them even if he wasn’t aware. He rubbed the back of his neck embarrassed a bit when Xavier called the noises his special sounds.

He was glad his words had been what Xavier needed to hear. They were the truth and that they gave his mate some peace of his worries meant all the world to him. He smiled at what Dawn had told Xavier. Dawn was a great woman and she had truly raised Xavier well and with all the love Revell had wanted to give to his mate when he was young. He would always be grateful to Dawn for giving his mate such a great childhood and keep the bad things from him. “Dawn is a great mother to you Xavier. She truly loves you as a she-wolf would love her very own cub.”

Revell played with Xavier’s fingers lightly as he spoke smiling softly when Xavier said he wasn’t creepy. He was glad his mate understood why he waited as long as he did. There were so many times that he constantly questioned everything he did around Xavier. Revell had been worried that would become too over eager and ruin the relationship between him and his mate before it had even begun. He stopped playing with Xavier’s fingers and held them in a firm loving grip as Xavier told him about a young lycan that had fallen for an older mated lycan and thusly killed herself over rejection. It was sad to think that a young she-wolf would kill herself over love but Revell could understand where those feelings came from. He didn’t know how he would go one if he was rejected by Xavier and had to go on with his life without the light that was his mate.

His arms around Xavier tightened for a moment in a hug as Xavier stretched his legs over Revell’s. He smiled at that and nuzzled the side of Xavier neck though he stopped when Xavier mentioned the music hall. A flush crept over Revell’s cheeks when Xavier said he had heard the entire conversation between him and Dawn. He looked down to where his arms were wrapped around Xavier feeling bad that he could’ve greatly upset Xavier if he’d left before Xavier’s return. His wolf whined in his head telling him how cruel leaving his mate like that would have been and Revell hushed him gently his own heart heavy at the thought. It wasn’t like he’d been eager to leave the music hall that day but he hadn’t wanted to intrude on time between Xavier and Dawn. He sighed and focused on Xavier’s words about how he thought Dawn was nuts. He smiled softly, “She just doesn’t want to be in your way but I agree you should tell her how much you love and will always need her.”

Revell felt a small pang in his chest. He was glad his own mother was dead he’d never wanted her not after what she and his father had done to him. Part of him felt guilty over thinking how grateful he was for their deaths and another part wished he had known a truly loving mother. It was in the past and he would leave it there. He had his mate and his pack that was all a lycan really needed. The words out of his mate’s mouth only confirmed it and chased away any sad feelings. I love you too Xavier more than words or even music can express.” At the nickname Revell chuckled. What could he say he’d liked those cookies and his wolf had been a glutton wanting more. Xavier was too good a cook for Revell’s own good. “I thought I’d smelled them when I went by your room earlier.” He chuckled and cuddled back with his mate. This was the best night he’d had in a long time and it was all thanks to his mate.

[Duke Xavier Hollows]

Speaking about his favorite plushie he smiled kissing Revell’s blushing cheeks. He had always slept with the plush in his arms, it smelled just like his beloved mate so it helped him sleep that much more peacefully. Thinking about the plush he had never really given it a name just called it Wolf. Seeing Revell do that he smirked cutely at him and kissed his lips. “I love the noises it made so there.” Nuzzling Revell he leaned the side of his head against his love’s cheek and closed his eyes thinking about when he found the plush in his room it had been put under the covers with him. “You were very quiet when you came in to give me the plush. After you left I woke up a bit and curled up into the plush it put me right back to sleep.” Xavier smiled admitting that to his beloved mate.

He felt the peace rushing through him and wouldn't change for anyone. The fact was he never needed to ever change just be himself. Xavier was the lycan pup people loved and adored. Nuzzling Revell he smiled and reflected on everything that ever happened to him in his life. He had the mom he had always wanted and never wanted that to change, his mom raised him perfectly and made sure he was still able to grow up. "Yes and I couldn't ask for a better one mom is an amazing woman and I love her dearly." Xavier had something special in mind for his mom for the holidays and many holidays to come.

Xavier smiled as his fingers were played with, meaning what he had said. "I couldn't ever think that about you mi amore." How could he even think about Revell being creepy he just couldn't. Wrinkling up his nose cutely those thoughts never even remotely crossed his mind. With his fingers now held in a firm loving grip he smiled and finished speaking about the young lycan and the older mated lycan. "Revell promise me if you ever even think about hurting yourself you come straight to me or my mom, I don't want to lose you I love you to much." He was being very serious with Revell he didn't want to lose the man of his dreams and of his eternity. Xavier would change the subject to something more fun and cheerful. Leaning over he lovingly brushed his lips over Revell's mouth in a warm kiss he knew what he wanted and that was Revell, never another lycan would have him or his heart.

He laid his hands on Revell's arms there around him, Xavier was very comfy where he was laying. Loving the nuzzles to the side of his neck he smiled and looked at Revell when he stopped the nuzzling. Seeing how flushed Revell's face was he kissed him on the nose then his cheek. Tilting his head he wondered what was wrong and lifted Revell's face up so he could look at him. "Love what's wrong? Please tell me what's bothering you." He was very concerned and lightly caressed the back of his love's neck waiting to know what was up. Saying what he had about his mom he smiled to Revell. "I know but she'll never be in my way, she's my mom oh trust me I will be telling her that." That would be the first thing he told his mom the next time he saw her and he would keep telling her that the rest of his life. To him his mom was a role model and he was proud to be her little boy.

Xavier was happy that he had never met Revell's parents if he had there would have been much yelling to be heard. He didn't want to be around cruel people like that and thought his mom was Revell's mom now to. Softly humming for his mate expressing his words of love after he was done. "Forever your lycan." Saying the nickname he playfully poked Revell in the stomach. "I can't forget catching you eating some of the frosting to one of the batch of cookies a few times, you loved the vanilla buttercream frosting." Laughing he made sure there was that yummy scent drifting around. "Oh you mean in our suite and a huge plate of cookies are waiting for you once we're home." Cuddling back into his mate he smiled and wished he would have brought some of the cookies with him but he could wait until they were home.